i will be hanging out with flora the dog over at my brother and paul’s place this week. bret is going to hawaii for christmas.
it’s a little cold here for me, and the light is at a certain angle of the sky that makes me ever so slightly depressed. actually, if it were warm, it wouldn’t matter.
i feel a little divided between two worlds. the goals, aspirations, and ambition most people have here are a bit different than those of most people in costa rica. when i first left for central america, i think there was a certain element of “turning my back” on all that here, and maybe a bit arrogantly so. i still think that for most people here it becomes an endless struggling cycle of never being satisfied and happy, but that isn’t the case for everyone. so i find myself thinking that maybe i should abandon the idea of living in paradise, get a place here and become a responsible member of society. maybe not follow the beaten path, but find one that doesn’t require a machete and a compass.
i wonder what is better suited for me, and it sometimes feels like i need to make a binding decision, and right now.Ã‚Â the reality of how it will turn out, i imagine, is much more subtle and complicated, just like everything else.Ã‚Â hopefully that means fun too.