if my brain were a car, today it badly needed a jump, and triple a never showed. i tried editing some video, and it was just difficult. i couldn’t get imovie to do what i thought was a simple thing. i read the fucking manual. i stared at the wall. i tried to daydream, thinking that if i wasn’t getting anything done i could at least dream up something to do in the future. i played the guitar, which was less inspired and more a question of just exercising fingers.
i read a lot of blogs and news articles. i feel no sense of retention. i was about to lapse into serious depression when i steamed a bunch of beets and then diced them, tossed them with some yellow peppers, carrot, red onion, lettuce. i made a tuna sandwich on a semifreddi seeded sourdough baguette, which i somehow managed to slice cleanly down the middle without losing control of the knife, slick with the oil from the garlic and balsamic vinagrette i made. then i watched “amelie”. a well-done movie, that only once bothered me with its romantic stylized parisian setting (right near the end i was half-expecting a pitch for a flavored instant coffee or heavily sugared non-dairy creamer with an eiffel tower on the label).
the movie actually catalyzed a few disparate thoughts i’ve been mulling in the way that a good movie can. i sat at the computer to write those thoughts down, and ended up instead describing what a struggle today has been. i really wanted to do something productive, and i am not altogether certain that i did not. i guess when i am standing at the gate of saint peter, some angel will look in the book and say “remember may third, 2005, when you did basically fuck-all?”
and then i’ll say, “yeah, and i remember that my mom left a comment on the blog objecting, as she always does, to my use of the word ‘fuck’”
a post about fuck-all
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4 responses to “a post about fuck-all”
Dude, I’m not quite so sure you’re going to be seeing Pete.
Lou, that is my concern exactly!
Look, e, if you want to feel good about your life, go reread “Gulag Archipelago” or the latest news about Dafur – and then sit back appreciate everything you’ve got. Have some fun: go for a sail, have a party at your favorite gay bathhouse, dump a few hundred playing online poker, etc.. Do some good for someone else (me?) and look to the future.
By the way, the expression, “fuck-all”, is used regularly by all my Brit friends. It seems to be a well established part of the English language. . Besides, I’m personally offended by the expression “Justin Timberlake”, but it seems to get used wantonly and indiscriminately in my presence all the time.
WordPress seems to have zapped my link to the “fuck-all” definition: http://www.cogsci.princeton.edu/cgi-bin/webwn2.0?stage=1&word=fuck+all
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